My name is Jordan, im 19 and im from Louisiana. Im starting this as a public personal journal, i dont really know what will happen with this or where it will go but i feel the need to start a journal. as both personal healing and maybe i can help someone else. This is gonna be a little all over the place im sure, because my life and this story is all over the place. I live with my boyfriend Clay, hes 20, and a recovering heroin addict. Today he is 54 days clean, after almost 2 whole years shooting up almost every day. this is the beginning this is big for us. Most of my page will be about his fight and my fight with him. I hate drugs. i hate them. they make me sick. i hate what they have done to clay i hate what they have done to his family. Clay is not a bad person, he is literally the smartest person i have ever met in my whole life. so dont think hes just a lost cause dirty person. As ive learned from this, that is what people automatically assume about him.which couldnt be farther from the truth, Hes beautiful, hes smart, hes SO smart, hes funny, he has a huge heart, he laughs he is beautiful and i love him. He grew up normal, he didnt have a bad child hood, he was just a normal kid when he got into this. it can happen to anyone i have learned. Its sick. drugs are sick and disgusting and they will suck you in like a big disgusting black hole, they will suck your family in and they will destroy you.